Lately -
I haven't been motivated to blog - busyness, tiredness, stress, self-pity and worry are to blame.
I feel like I've been living in a fog - like a reality pergatory or something. Just unsure of the future, where I want to go and what I want to do and how I'm going to do it.
I've been contemplating a lot about life and God's will for mine.
I've been feeling unsettled and rarely want to spend a day at home - I want to move into a different house, preferrably in the country and feel free - I'm feeling claustrophobic in town and it's getting worse by the day. I'm yearning for a back porch to sit on in the evenings, drinking iced tea, watching the kids play in the yard and looking out for miles at nothing except maybe some wheat fields, grass and an occasional house in the distance. Ahhhhh - if only . . . . .
Now -
I think I'm slowly creeping out of this fog that I'm in and beginning to live each day to the fullest again - not wallowing in a pit of self-pity and frustration and worry.
I have a sink full of dishes, toys and unfolded laundry on the floor and instead of doing it I'm choosing to write this short blog and then probably take my kids on a walk on the greenbelt - regardless of the wind.
I'm trying to figure out how to be the healthiest I can be without becoming a fitness fanatic or health freak. I don't want that to control me either - I just want to live each day, making healthier choices, getting some form of exercise and treat food as a necessity for survival not a prescription for my boredom, depression, fears, social outings, etc . . . . .
I'm enjoying my children for the next 2 months before I dive back into a full-time job as a 2nd grade teacher.
I'm spending some time in the Bible and prayer each morning before the kids wake up and feeling refreshed and ready for the day prior to cartoons and cheerios.
I'm actively taking side roads when I'm driving in the country to see if any houses with property are for sale.
I'm going to begin blogging again more regularly!
Until then - - -
2 comments:
When you find your house in the country can I come sit on your porch and watch the kids run around too? Sounds so fun!
I so appreciate you Kara. Thank you. That's all I know to say, but what is running through my brain is much more. I so respect you and am very thankful for the Lord's leading in your life. Thank you for sharing your journey, bumpy roads and all.
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